As I ask God, with thought of His highlighting of Galatians 1:10, where in my life He sees me seeking to please man rather than Him alone, my thought to push myself to make it back to church comes to heart. My husband’s ebbing and waning health has held my focus as I care for him. On good days for him, my need for rest comes on strong. Church takes a back burner in this season.
I do miss church family. I do desire faithfulness in obedience to God. I do want to please God through my obedience to His Word of instruction. But it dawns on me as I think on these things that these are not secondary desires, as they should be. They are the drive behind my desire, along with this desire to be found faithful in man’s eyes God is revealing to me today. My heart is not solely set on seeking God above all else. The pursuit of God as my one true passion is not the motivating drive behind my desire.
Father, as I think on these things, I pray for passion toward You to drive me to church in Your time and place. I pray passion for You to be the driving force behind my desire for Your people, through whom You shine. I pray passion for You to drive my faithful obedience. I pray passion for deeper discovery of You to drive me to Your Word.
Be the passion in me that starts and revs my spiritual engine, and that keeps it running smooth to the glory of your name, wherever You may lead me. In Jesus’ holy and beloved name, fill me with His passion. Amen